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We have been home for 2 days and I am just starting to feel myself again.

The funeral was pretty hard to do, when they closed the casket so many people started to cry (including myself) and when we pall barriers walked the casket out I somehow got to be the first one to lead the casket out, not sure how that happen, but it happen and it was hard, I cried the entire way and really needed to blow my nose the entire way. Liza and the boys really lost it on the way out and it was noticeable, I even didn’t have to turn around to see who it was.

I never been to a funeral where there was 8 pall barriers and we was all making fun of that and talking how big Diesel was etc and now that it’s over all I can say is HOLY FUCK I’M GLAD THERE WAS 8 OF US! He weighed a fucking ton. And when we carried him to the grave site we was only allowed to use one hand and we had to wear white gloves which made it harder, the ground wasn’t even and we was all petrified we would fall, but we didn’t and he was sent off with honor.

After that we went to Liza’s and had a gathering and just talked the afternoon away, we got back to the hotel around 5pm and got room service and just chilled out. I had very little booze left and tried to go to bed early but as soon as I was close to falling asleep I had an anxiety attack which pretty much kept me up the entire night. We left at 7am and were home by 1pm and over all it was a good drive home.

We did the gym Thursday and overall I did really well unlike today when the second I got the treadmill which is upstairs I knew I was in trouble, it was so hot and muggy it felt like Florida. On a normal day I can easily run 1-1.5 miles before I start to breathe hard and today I was gasping for air after 1/4 mile so after I passed the 1 mile mark I just said fuck it and did a 5 minute walk and got off the treadmill. This was the first time since I broke the 2 mile barrier I didn’t run 2 miles. I started to do my sit-ups and after 200 of the usual 400 I said fuck that too and called it a day.

So I am in a pissy mood as I sat in the Jeep with the a/c running until Pauline finished her workout and we went to the store where they was having a 1980’s day and wow, talk about funny, that really made my day better, these workers really went all out.

We also finally broke down and bought a new grill which was something we wanted to get for a year or more. And I cooked up some killer rib eye steak, baked potatoes, corn on the cob and asparagus. Turned out pretty good, I just wish I waited for the sun to go down; it was at its peak angle where the grill is so it made it pretty hot and uncomfortable.

We are watching Kevin Smith Threeeving and I’m sure we will like it as much as we liked the first two.

Did I mention it’s too fucking hot?

Oh Canada…. not again…

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We got in around 10 am Sunday, which was about 2 hours earlier then as expected, so when we checked in the hotel we had to wait 45 mins for our room which is no biggie, we ate some breakfast that we both regretted, sometimes you want to eat sweet and sometimes you don’t and this was a time we didn’t. We got into our room and took a 3 hour “nap” that really helped, but wasn’t enough to make the day any better.

We arrived at the funeral home and hugged D’s wife Liza and the oldest son J who was doing ok, sad but not crying, as I was hugging him the youngest son D was hugging Pauline and he started to cry than he jumped toward my arms and really broke down crying hard as he death gripped my neck and he cried and cried hard for 10+ minutes… and all I could do was hold him and cry, that so broke my heart as it has never been broke before, I will remember that moment for the rest of my life.

Diesel and his wife belong to a nontraditional Christian church which is made up of about 99% Asians and they have nontraditional way doing things.   So the funny thing was watching all us non Asians trying to figure out wtf is going on and we was all in the front rows, so we was turning around to see what everyone behind us was doing.

They gave some sermons and told some biblical stories that had nothing to do with the Diesel we knew, but they showed a funny slide show of Diesel from his life that got us all laughing, Pauline and I was in a pic that neither of us remember when and where it was taken, and I was in a few more pictures from the wedding.

After we went to the reception room to eat and talk and just comfort each other, it was so wonderful to see our friends, some of them I have known for over 18 years. Some of us are still in shock; some of us are laughing our way through all this.

Diesel is in his Navy Dress Blues and we put some Crown Royal, popcorn, a DVD, and some BBQ spice in his coffin. D looks pretty good for a dead guy, he looks “stuffed” into the coffin which made us all laugh, and he has a smirk on his face that as one of us said “that he just won his last argument” which was so him.

We tried to get an honor guard from the US Navy here, but found out today not enough of them have passports and Canada wasn’t too keen on allowing the US Military into Canada with weapons, so we will have a bugler playing taps and they will do the Flag ceremony.

My Brother died of Cancer today…

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Diesel died at 12:15 am 07/09/2009.

We went to bed somewhat late, and both pretty much passed out when the phone rang at 12:39 am. It took a few seconds to realize it was my phone and it was going off since we was both in “la la land” at the time, so when I picked it up I saw the area code 778 and for whatever reason I thought “New York” and I don’t know anyone from that number, so fuck’em…. and went back to sleep.

When I got up at 8am and saw my voice mail I saw “British Columbia” (which is what I hate about the iPhone, it doesn’t say where the call is coming from, just the # that is calling if they are not on my list) and the only area code I knew from BC is 604, so the second I saw someone from BC called me I knew.

It was Diesel’s wife Liza and she she he died in his sleep. I called her and we talk for s few minutes and she told me we was the first people she called, so yeah, I totally feel like a piece of shit for not answering.

Still not sure when the viewing and funeral etc will be, but friends/family are starting to fly in from Japan this weekend as well as from all over the US and Canada, so we will be going up to Canada Sunday night and odds are we will be there for 3-4 days.

Right now I am waiting on the wife to shower so we can go find me something to wear, which if you know me, you know how I *HATE* shopping for clothes, so this will be fun, just love the idea of spending $ on something I don’t want and wont wear more than once.

I am still in shock somewhat, I am at peace right now knowing he is at peace, but the second I think of his boys, ages 7 and 5…

Fuck Off Cancer.

I miss my Brother.

What year is this????

Jonny Says FUCK YOU!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=saTCMJVYljU

This is the story link…

http://www.nbcphiladelphia.com/news/local/Pool-Boots-Kids-Who-Might-Change-the-Complexion.html

“…”I heard this lady, she was like, ‘Uh, what are all these black kids doing here?’ She’s like, ‘I’m scared they might do something to my child,'” said camper Dymire Baylor.
The Creative Steps Day Camp paid more than $1900 to The Valley Swim Club. The Valley Swim Club is a private club that advertises open membership. But the campers’ first visit to the pool suggested otherwise.

“When the minority children got in the pool all of the Caucasian children immediately exited the pool,” Horace Gibson, parent of a day camp child, wrote in an email. “The pool attendants came and told the black children that they did not allow minorities in the club and needed the children to leave immediately.”

Michael Jackson is Dead, by Jon LaJoie


“Alone in the Universe” by Jon LaJoie – Watch more Funny Videos

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Catchy song with a good message and better ending (be sure to watch it all), but I still don’t care that MJ died.

MJ being dead doesn’t affect me at all and somehow I think in 20 years I will not remember where I was and what I was doing the moment I found out he died. He has some great music of course, but eh…. I can think of many others I would rather listen to and I have zero MJ on my iPod which wasn’t a conscious thought either way.

I do remember December 9, 1980 at 2:17 pm which is when I found out about John Lennon.

Yes I know Lennon died on December 8, 1980, but I was in the first grade and we lived in the country and went to a country school and there was no 24 hour news, so no one knew until we got home that afternoon that he was dead. I do however remember seeing a few of the teachers crying as we was going home, but none of us kids knew why.

In fact I called a friend and told him and I remember him telling his older sister who was a HUGE fan of The Beatles and I remember her screaming bloody murder over the phone. I remember the exact time since we had just got our first microwave a few days before and it had a blue digital clock on it that I always stared at when I was on the phone.

At the time all I knew of John Lennon was that he was a singer and he was with The Beatles, and that he was a hippe. I knew his death made everyone cry for a few days and that scared the shit out of us younger kids, but I had no idea who he really was at the time so his death has never really affected me either but as I grew older and learned more and what he did and who he was I feel a huge loss.

If you have not seen “The U.S. vs John Lennon” get it ASAP, it is just incredible.

Oh yeah, Big Love to Farrah and her Big Nipples who I will remember in 20, 30, 40 years and beyond….