AND I’M GOING TO FUCKING KILL HER!
I really have been stressing all day long so bad Im on verge of a panic attack…. I need booze.
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I don’t know what else to do.
Harold has called the shelter in case someone brings her in. We have put up & handed out flyers. I have spoke to nearly everyone I have encountered and showed them her picture. She has a purple collar (break away), tags with her name, address, phone number, country license, and her chip number.
We have both walked the neighborhood. I’ve done about 12miles, 9 of it yesterday and the rest 1st things this morning. I’ve gone about 7 blocks away, don’t know if I went far enough….spending a lot of time in the immediate area because that would mean less streets for her to cross.
I just about camped out on the back deck hoping she would show up, spent the night by the patio door and jumping at every “cat” noise I heard and taking more walks shaking their cat treats that they come running to. I keep hoping that with all the birds that come to our back yard feeders that she will return just for that.
I dreamt that the she came home all dirty and that thought it was so real that I woke with my heart racing and hoping.
I had never seen a cat run as fast as she did when she got out….she was a blur and it scared me. What worries me is that she doesn’t have that much “fear” in her and she is so quiet. She rarely meows and when she does you do a double take because it is so quiet you don’t know if it came from her. She doesn’t really like to come when you call her…it has to be on her own terms.
I have friends offering words of comfort, stating that they have know cats to get out and will turn up days, weeks even months later and not to give up hope. I know that is true and with the neighborhood full of outdoor cats, that it can happen. But I don’t I know how well I can handle that.
I’ve never had a cat get out on me like that and then lose them. =(  The only time one of our cats got out is when we had a roommate and he came home late at night and didn’t notice Aurora get out.
We got lucky there, because when I discovered that she was gone, I went calling for her in the neighborhood. And a few days a later a neighbor 5 doors down came to us. We guess what had happened is that when he was bringing in groceries she sneak in since he left his door open since he didn’t have animals. Plus these were house depluxes and all looked a like, so she thought she was coming home. She got into a corner space under the kitchen cabinets and he hadn’t seen her, just heard her. Thought that it was a racoon. So he called animal control and they had set up a no-kill trap…with no luck.  Once he heard about us missing her, he came down. I knew it was her, as soon as I called her name when I went in and she meowed at me right away.
We got so, so lucky and I’m so hoping that we get that again. Because I don’t know what I will do if we don’t. =(
I keep thinking that I hear Sukura out there…..I know that is wishful thinking..but there is so much noise from the traffic that I’m not sure. And she is so quiet other then her collar.
It is late, but I just did a walk around the neighborhood, just hoping.
There are too many neighborhood cats….everytime I think I see her it is isn’t.
The what if’s and hoping to see her keep running through my head. She has never been outside.
I totally frakked up on handling her getting out. =( I was trying to get Harold at the same time of keeping her in sight….I keep replaying over in my head what I should’ve done differently.
I totally stressed & freaked out by this.
And with her getting out…I totally hurt my husband. She is his baby, they have that special connection…..and the fact that she isn’t here for him, hurts me more then anything.
I just want to wake up and find that this was a bad dream.
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Sakura got out and bolted and we can’t find her. We have been looking for 3+ hours and now its dark so we wait.
We have reward posters and pics posted all over the area and I reported it to the shelter. She has a tag and a microchip so if she’s picked up we will find her, but all I can think of is “what if” which is fucking killing me.
She has not been outside since she was a kitten, we never let them out of the house with out a leash, and she bolts? There are a million places she could within 100′ of the house be and we would never see her and she hardly meows at all and when she does she’s so quite your not sure even sure you heard her.
I can’t ever recall a time I was this heart broken and this livid all at once…
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I hear today we celebrate some dead guy who came back to life and is looking for brains, or at least I would think he is looking for brains, but what the hell do I know, I don’t even believe in zombies.
It has been somewhat of a long week; Monday has already talked about so let’s go to Tuesday which was the day I got to drive to Vancouver, WA to the Jeep dealership that is 22 miles away compared to the 8 miles the other dealership I have been going to, it took just as long to get there and it was a better drive, so that surprised me, and over all it was a better experience than I have had with this company, but I would still rather not ever have to deal with them again.
They fixed the noise and the rattle in the speaker and did it in 90 minutes compared to the 3 hours I was told it would take so that is super cool, but they ignored the clicking sound we hear when we make sharp right turns even though that was one of the original complaints I had with it so I still get to deal with that issue when the next service appointment is made.
Wednesday we went to Vancouver, BC and over all had a really good drive up, hardly any traffic issues at all even in Seattle and the border crossing took just 20 minutes or so and if you didn’t know, you now get stopped by Americans before you get stopped by Canadians… yeah, makes no sense to me neither.
Diesel was still in the hospital, everyone is saying it’s not the cancer this time; it’s the meds for the cancer that caused his brain to swell, he had been in the hospital since Thursday and finally got home Thursday night, so yet another week of hospital crap and some more of his side effects have become more apparent, he has lost feeling in his left arm and other issues I will not go into, but he is alive and trying to get on with his life as best as he can.
We stayed at the hospital for 4 or so hours and he needed to get sleep so we went back to the hotel and got back just in time for room service which ends at 9:30pm? Food was ok, but at least we didn’t have to go out looking for it. Than we had some good friends come over around 1030 and they stayed to 230 and we had a really good time with them, just drank and laughed and watched the police department do a search of the park across the street.
Thursday we ate at the café we always eat at and had the same waitress who we have had before and who I remembered I didn’t care for, but didn’t remember why I didn’t like her which I was reminded of when after we finished eating I realized my ass was soaking wet and when I told her my chair was soaking wet she said “Yeah, someone spilled water†as if I was the dumbass cause I didn’t know someone spilled the water… If there wasn’t 5 cops in there eating I would have told her off, that really pissed me off, you think that is something she should have taken care of when it first happen or at the very least told us it was wet and I should switch to another chair?
Anyway we head home and had a 50 minute wait at the border and stopped in Everett, WA to have dinner with other friends and that was a great, but short time. They took us to a local Blues/Jazz bar that served Southern food and it was really good. The 4 of us ordered one of every appetizer as well as Fried Chicken and it was just a really good and fun meal and we left around 7pm and got home around 11pm.
Friday was my only day in the gym this week and we had to buy some office supplies since my mouse and mouse pad both died for good this week, and nothing else really comes to mind for Friday.
Saturday we finished off more of the front yard, we moved more rock yet again, moved more plants, planted more plants and laid more rock, went back to HD for more rock, and after spreading that rock we realized we are still 2-3 bags short which we will deal with this week. After that we just chilled and tried to work on stuff at the desk, but we were both pretty exhausted.
Today we slept to 10am which is very very late and watched “V for Vendetta†on TV (Ignore the fact that I have the DVD not 3’ away but I was too lazy and decided to deal with the commercials) and so far that is the extent of Sunday.
I have a “MUST DO†list staring at me in the face and yet, I am too tired to care, so I think today is the day I think of zombies and just chill out.
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