I can not seem to marshall my thoughts like I use to. My postings have been more rambling then I would like.
It is frustrating. I do not know if I am writing with too much background noise. I always have been very good at ignoring it when I am focused, when I go deep into something, I totally tunnel vision….I do not see or hear anything around me. But I am wondering if it has been so long that I can not seem to get to that level.
I am also wondering if I am so tired and distracted with the things that I need to do, that it dissipates my emotions on the matter I wish to address.
I have always written more focused when I am really riled up. And before I thought about writing again, I would be getting riled up and my thoughts together when I was driving home…..which is why I was thinking of dictating to my notes on my iphone. When I get home after work, I would be forced to change my focus and get busy either showering, getting ready for the next day or trying to chill, that I am not able to get that focus back.
Then I was wondering today if it is because I get most of my thoughts out to my co-workers…..but then I use to write a lot when I was out and about.
Then when I have the perfect days to focus and have no distractions, I have to struggle with my thoughts. It is disappointing. =(
Maybe I should start writing on more mundane everyday things…..
I am hoping with these posts that I will finally get them out more clearly. It will take practice, time, and (I guess) patience.