We have been home for 2 days and I am just starting to feel myself again.
The funeral was pretty hard to do, when they closed the casket so many people started to cry (including myself) and when we pall barriers walked the casket out I somehow got to be the first one to lead the casket out, not sure how that happen, but it happen and it was hard, I cried the entire way and really needed to blow my nose the entire way. Liza and the boys really lost it on the way out and it was noticeable, I even didn’t have to turn around to see who it was.
I never been to a funeral where there was 8 pall barriers and we was all making fun of that and talking how big Diesel was etc and now that it’s over all I can say is HOLY FUCK I’M GLAD THERE WAS 8 OF US! He weighed a fucking ton. And when we carried him to the grave site we was only allowed to use one hand and we had to wear white gloves which made it harder, the ground wasn’t even and we was all petrified we would fall, but we didn’t and he was sent off with honor.
After that we went to Liza’s and had a gathering and just talked the afternoon away, we got back to the hotel around 5pm and got room service and just chilled out. I had very little booze left and tried to go to bed early but as soon as I was close to falling asleep I had an anxiety attack which pretty much kept me up the entire night. We left at 7am and were home by 1pm and over all it was a good drive home.
We did the gym Thursday and overall I did really well unlike today when the second I got the treadmill which is upstairs I knew I was in trouble, it was so hot and muggy it felt like Florida. On a normal day I can easily run 1-1.5 miles before I start to breathe hard and today I was gasping for air after 1/4 mile so after I passed the 1 mile mark I just said fuck it and did a 5 minute walk and got off the treadmill. This was the first time since I broke the 2 mile barrier I didn’t run 2 miles. I started to do my sit-ups and after 200 of the usual 400 I said fuck that too and called it a day.
So I am in a pissy mood as I sat in the Jeep with the a/c running until Pauline finished her workout and we went to the store where they was having a 1980’s day and wow, talk about funny, that really made my day better, these workers really went all out.
We also finally broke down and bought a new grill which was something we wanted to get for a year or more. And I cooked up some killer rib eye steak, baked potatoes, corn on the cob and asparagus. Turned out pretty good, I just wish I waited for the sun to go down; it was at its peak angle where the grill is so it made it pretty hot and uncomfortable.
We are watching Kevin Smith Threeeving and I’m sure we will like it as much as we liked the first two.
Did I mention it’s too fucking hot?