I know, I know….I haven’t done an actually post in awhile. I think I have gotten too dependent on twitter. But it is addicting when you have a thought that you want to get out quickly. I am one of those that needs to do that, if I don’t I totally forget what I want to say….annoying.
So here is a warning, this entry is probably a downer….so if you don’t want to hear anymore, I wouldn’t go any further if I was you.
If you have been following my tweets, you will know that we lost Harold’s brother. They served together in the Navy almost 20yrs ago and were very close. Like my dad texted me “There is no greater loss then a brother in arms†=(
Diesel has been fighting brain cancer for over 2yrs and had 2 young boys with his wife. He had always wanted kids, so the fracked up thing is that he finally got them and now he isn’t able to see them grow up. =( He was so looking forward to taking them to where he grew up in the south and meeting the rest of his family. So they can see how different it is then living in Canada.
We have been just trying to go day by day and get ready for our trip up. There are times where it feels like it is going to hit and we choke up but work our way through it. We pretty much have been trying to distract ourselves. We are so not looking forward to the next few days…..we are going to lose it. Sometimes I can go on as if a regular day, but then it hits me and I just want to lose it….but I guess that is part of grieving. =(
There are 2 days of viewing and then the services, there are people flying from all over the world. Diesel served 20yrs in the Navy and had make a ton of friends. He always seemed to be the one link that kept everyone connected.
We got a call yesterday and Harold is going to be one of the pall bearers.
I know I so over packed. But the viewing is 4hrs and then you have the rest of the day. We had already gotten ourselves clothes for 1 viewing and the service, didn’t think of a 2nd viewing. So luckily we have lost weight and was able to fit into some of our nice clothes that we had already. Harold was easy to figure out, only really had 1 other outfit….me, I’m really not sure. I have a few different things that I can do, but will just have to try a few things on and have hubby help me with that. We’ll wear those for the 1st night. But I’m so not use to packing clothes that you try to keep wrinkle free anymore, made it even hard to pack. Good thing the hotel has an iron for touch up.
I so hope Drew doesn’t attack our plants again while we are gone. We think he did it out of boredom last time and we just missed it by a few hours. Harold was not happy….dirty was everywhere the little bugger. Still going to miss our babies. =( They really help on making us laugh when we feel so down.
On a lighter side, I’ve received 2 more compliments from people at the gym and from 2 of our friends that we just saw for the 1st time in a while. The gym ones total throw me off, one even toward me that I’m an inspiration because I keep coming in regardless of how much I already lost.
Yes, I know I’ve lost weight and I do notice, but I really didn’t think it was that noticeable where strangers would notice. Well, they are strangers in that I don’t know them. But they aren’t in that we’ve been seeing them in the gym for the last year & half. You get use to seeing the same 20-30 everyday when you go at the same time. =) But Harold did tell me that it is more noticeable then I realize.
It feels good, but totally weird. Because I still want to get rid of 8# of jiggle and tone up some more. But that is so female, never satisfied. =)
I got as much work as I can get done. I have payroll to do on the 15th, but I won’t be here for it. Everyone has been given a heads up that they will be late. I’m so not looking forward to the email and the pay requests that will be waiting for me when we get back, but that is life and I’ll just take it one thing at a time.
Well, need to get my butt to bed. 04:30 comes early…icks