I’m pretty satisfied with the miles I got this week. Â We missed the gym Monday and that is 4 miles off of my pedometer, but we did do over 3 miles Sunday, when I rarely get over 2 unless I go for a walk. Â Today I almost got 6 miles on….so not too bad. Â Friday was a wash on the weights, but I did do good on the treadmill and my abs. Â But I must have really pushed my legs this week, because it has hard to walk up and down the stairs this week. Â My thighs have been feeling it.
I just have been trying to enjoy the beautiful weather today.  I didn’t do much work, walked down town for some fresh fruits & veggies, put some laundry away, took care of our flowers, and went for a walk.  I had called dad on father’s day from Canada but keep losing connection, so I tried to call my folks, but they were working outside so I’ll pester them tomorrow. =)
Well, as of my last update supposedly Diesel was going to get chemo…..found out Friday that it is not going to happen. Â =( Â We got an email from his wife Liza, the Dr talked to a specialist and he is too far along for chemo. Â They are giving him about a month.
I need to email Liza to find out if they are bringing him home for it or stay at a hospital and see how she is holding up.
My feelings are kind of messed up, I honestly didn’t have realistic hope when we saw him last week….but I guess deep down I was holding on to some type of hope since they were talking about chemo. Â So since we got that email I just want to cry for both what Harold is going through and myself, but feel selfish about my own feelings when his family is going through it and has been struggling with it for the last 2 years. Â I wish there was something more that we can do for them, more that we can do for his wife, I wish there was more that I can do for Harold, they have been so close. Â It doesn’t feel like it is enough.
I’ve been fighting these feelings for last 2 days and have been trying not to think about it, honestly I’m thankful for our cats, especially the 2 babies….great for distraction by providing laughter, even if it is temporary.
Jonathon, Diesel, Liza & Dylan
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