Today was ok at work. I always feel as if I’m walking on egg shells.
All I want to do is go in and do my job and go home. I like my job, just not some of the issues that have been coming up & it is taking it’s toll. Where I no longer want to do anything related to work on my own time. I use to bring things home to work on, well I quite doing that at the beginning of May when I felt my caring wasn’t appreciated. And then when family came down, I just didn’t have the time.
We don’t have kids by choice, but when I get my mothering instinct going I’ve always taken it out at work, on my job and the folks I work with after I’ve driven Harold nuts with my pestering. But my uneasiness at work has forced me take stock of my priorities in my life at this conjunction. I have way too much that I need to do at home. I have letters to write to my family, I have work that I need to do with Harold, & there are things that I’m debating on learning so I can help. Not sure if it would be something that I would like to do. But even if I don’t do that, there is so much I would like to learn with some reading. I have a bunch of books waiting to be read and some political mags I would like to start getting, if I had time to read. It takes me about a week and half just to read my one Time mag.
I care about my job when I’m there, I have no problem staying late or coming in early, but on my own time, I want nothing to do with it any more. I have things outside of my job that are a hell lot more important in my life then this job that is for sure. The stress and aggravation isn’t worth it.
So now I just go in, do my thing and get out as soon as I can. Right I have until next Thursday for my next day off.
Right now we are watching “Broken Trail†it was on a few months ago and we are finally watching it. I love Robert Duvall’s westerns. But one of my favorite movies of his isn’t a western, it is “Secondhand Lionsâ€. I guess I just love character actors.